okay this doesn't have ANYTHING to do with 'square' but I started writing and I couldn't stop XD. trigger warnings for blood and gore.
Itâd been an accident when his arrow went through the satyrâs gut. Truly, it was. Quean had been going for his heart. He supposed both achieved the same purpose if he waited long enough.
His breaths rattled through his chest as Quean stared down at where the satyr had fallen, after prancing through the past two meadows at Queanâs chase. The elf sat crouched in the giant sycamores, covered in sweat, wearing crimsons. He didnât blend into the trees, but he didnât need to. The forest whispered at him, urging him on, supporting him.
âGet up,â Quean called, grinning. âIf youâre playing dead, you best believe you wonât want to be down there when I reach you.â
He slipped through the branches quickly, Maeralâs howling laughter in his ears, Fyrrahâs cheering.
Quean dropped into the grass and stalked forward towards the satyr, who sat up, eyes wide and panicked as he attempted scrabbling back, hooves kicking.
âSo this is how you elves are, in the end? Youâll hunt me down for sportââ
Quean swung his foot into the side of the satyrâs head, knocking him back down, before crouching on top of him in the grass, knee to his gut.
âYou wanted my attention.â Quean sneered, leaning forward, grabbing Elias by the hair. âAnd now youâve got it. Tell me, was it worth it? Did you think Iâd just let you walk?â
He got spit in his face for the trouble, and he slammed Elias down, slipping an arrow from his quiver to skewer into the grass, scraping the satyrâs ear.
âI thought you wanted me,â Quean taunted, leaning over him. âNow youâve got me. Whereâs my thanks?â
Elias, dear, dear, sweet Elias, with his pretty dimpled smile who laughed with him under the last full moon, who laid tangled up with him in the sands with the bite of saltwater in the air, taught him how to dance, whoâd often looked at him with the kind of softness that had agitated Quean to no end for reasons he could never fathom. The way fae loved, with an obsession, until the obsession ran out. Quean was aware of the eyes on them, Maeral and Fyrrah and Solette, a few of their other friends having trailed behind scenting blood. There was the buzz of cicadas in the air, the pounding in Queanâs head.
Eliasâs breaths rose and fell with his chest as he glared evenly up at Quean, strands of his dark hair strewn back. Elias, whoâd been going around mouthing off about him, cooking up all sorts of tall tales from Quean secretly having a devilâs tail hidden in his pants to petty ones about a long list of names heâd been sleeping with.
Why?
Quean found he couldnât particularly bring himself to care. It was another reason for drama, entertainment, another outlet for the rage that nipped at his heart every time there was too much quiet, too much happiness he didnât deserve, another distraction from the sirenâs cursed song that grew fainter and fainter in his head.
âYouâre never going to learn, are you?â Eliasâs voice was low. âYouâre incorrigible.â The usually-spineless satyr smirked up at him. âGo on, then. Your friends are watching. Do your worst. It was my bad I ever got involved with you.â
âIs that right?â Quean had zero sympathies when he slid Fyrrahâs sword from her scabbard and separated the satyrâs head clean off from his neck.
Elalee, of course, was furious. Why?
Who cared?
âYou had one job. Just the one!â Elalee snapped, about having lost it, it seemed like. âStay out of trouble. Or did you want to go out of your way just to piss off dad?â
âAlright, alright. I get youâre mad,â Quean said, watching the tense set of her shoulders as she trudged on ahead. The summer air was sweet tonight, mixed with the scent of fresh iron from dripping crimson arrows clutched in Queanâs fist. âI beg you to considerâ I was drunk.â
âDrunk!â
Fyrrah was giggling, jostling his shoulder, arm looped through the crook of Queanâs, and Quean glanced at her, amused. Speaking of fervent gender envy. Fyrrah was stunning even in forest-green armor, cheeks flushed a pretty pink as stray hairs escaped her silver braids. She was breathing hard from the recent run. Harmless. Adorable. She carried the dismembered head of the satyr in her other hand, holding it by the hair. Perfect. Quean only wished he pulled off âbeautiful and deadly,â quite like she did. âQuean, darling, ignore her. Sheâs just in a tizzy she wasnât invited.â Her voice came out sharp and slurred, more than a little drunk herself.
âIf you simply felt left out, El, all you had to do was say so.â Quean grinned, raising his brows at Elaleeâs back. âWeâll invite you along with us the next time.â
Solette was laughing from behind them, his steps falling loudly through the forest. âIâll have imps hand-deliver the invitation. Iâll even pen it myself. âYou are hereby cordially invited to: the next time Quean loses his shit.ââ
They all found that hilarious except for Elalee, apparently, who came to a sudden stop.
She spun around to face them, and Queanâs humor drained in its entirety as she stalked up to him.
âYou. Killed. Somebody.â Elalee poked her finger at Queanâs chest for emphasis with every word, and Queanâs brow twitched.
âFyrrah, Solette. Can you give us a minute?â Quean asked, looking down into furious greens.
âOh donât bother,â Elalee hissed. âI wouldnât want to interrupt. Whatâll you do the next time youâre bored? Go hunting down centaur for fun? Youâd probably be betting on how many families youâll leave mourning in the meanwhile, too.â
âDonât be such a BORE,â Fyrrah groaned, straightening from Queanâs side only to drape her arms around Elaleeâs shoulders now. âYouâre being so seriousss. Come on! Lighten up.â She held up the satyr head to shake it in Elaleeâs face. âHeâs in a better place now.â
Quean wanted to laugh at his sisterâs expression, but she raised her disgusted gaze from Fyrrah and met his eyes with a look that spoke volumes.
âFyrrah,â Quean said placatingly, trying to pull her off of Elalee, though Fyrrah protested, resisting. âCome on.â Quean said. âLet her go. Sheâs not in the mood.â
âUgh, you too?â She stumbled into him.
âWhy donât you go save us seats with Solette?â Quean suggested, though Fyrrah simply pouted at him. Quean leaned his chin on her shoulder and turned her face up to kiss her. Skies, how she managed to smell like honeysuckle was beyond him, the rest of them were drenched in sweat. Fyrrah shook with a giggle, suddenly biting down on his lip until they tasted iron and Quean shoved her off, with a laugh.
âIs that going to be your way of telling me to fuck off gently?â Fyrrah seemed to find it hilarious. âOkay, okay, I get it. Iâm not wanted here.â She turned to make a motion to Elalee Quean couldnât fully see, âDonât keep him long, mmkay? I expect him back before the dancing starts.â She turned to walk backwards a moment, pointing at Quean. âYou best not run, sunshine. I better see you there.â
âWouldnât dream of keeping the lovely lady waiting,â Quean blew her a kiss, to which she let out an amused laugh and tossed at him the satyrâs head. Quean caught it automatically, finding Eliasâs upside down face looking back at him. The satyrâs locks were still soft, fluffy to the touch, his mouth hanging open as blood dripped from his neck into his face in rivulets. Quean tucked it under his arm when he heard a squeal.
âBe careful,â Quean called after Fyrrah and Solette, exasperated, and Solette flipped him off in response.
âSkies, why must you mistreat the dead like that? Havenât you done enough?â Elalee breathed, coming forward to take the head, but Quean stepped back, holding it tighter.
âDid you knowâŚâ Quean trailed off, staring after his friends. The words fumbled through his muddled mind, the scent of alcohol on his clothes heady. âElias didnât spread those rumors after all.â His grin was wry. âIt was one of those two. Maybe both. Solette lost a bet to how Iâd react when I found out.â
It wasnât what he wanted to say to Elalee, of all people. She would hate him all the more for it. But she was the only one with something resembling a conscience around him. She was the only one who could tell him if what he was doing was right anymore.
But all of itâ Quean found all of it, ridiculous. The satyr had always been kind to him. Treasured him, even. Ridiculous.
The slap stung his cheek, and he looked down at Elalee, who glared up at him.
âI donât recognize you half the time,â She said, and Quean was shocked to see the tears. âOr is this what youâve always been? Was I a fool, Quean? How long before everyone you love end up like that satyr in your hands?â She shoved him back a step. âWhat about me? Do you ever, ever think about me? For a single second? What Iâve been going through, keepingâ keepingââ Elalee screamed.
Queanâs expression shuttered closed, and he tilted his head, withholding a smile. He moved towards his little sister by a certain gravity, holding out his hand, âCome now, Elaââ
âDonât touch me.â
It stopped him in his tracks. He raised his brows. âAnd who asked you to?â Queanâs voice was sharp, now. âDid I ask you, Elalee, to take care of me? Did I ask you to take responsibility for me?â
Elalee pounded her fist into his chest, âI do it because I care! You dumb moron! You donât need to askââ
ââWho told you to care?â Quean snapped. âCertainly, I never did. Live your life, El. Go play with your friends. Get obsessed over revelries. Act your age.â
âI canât!â Her voice was nigh a scream. âYou think I want to play your keeper? You think I chose this? Skies, I canât. I canât with you. Youâre impossible.â
âYouâre incorrigible.â
Elalee paced the ground, running her fingers through her hair.
Quean let out a long breath, flexing his fists in agitation, Eliasâs head still warm, tucked under his arm.
âYou were different from Maeral. You were supposed to be. Why canât you justâ listen to Chaenath, instead of competing with himââ
âChaenath?â Quean scoffed. âThat damn work-obsessed buffoon has nothing on me. He thinks he knows things, but heâs just holed up in his library half the timeââ
âWeâre all still grieving, Quean. We all are. Did you have toâ donât walk away from me. Hey.â
Heâd had enough. Why he subjected himself to Elaleeâs judgement still was beyond him. Started treating a little girl like⌠like Alayrie, just because she wanted to be. I
âWhat are you going to do with the satyr?â
âI wasnât aware you were my nanny,â Quean mocked. âShould I report to you every little thing I get up to now? Go home, Elalee.â