If you’re familiar with my posts, you know I rarely post personal things. I like to keep my personal life and writing life separated for the most part, but sometimes I feel a need to talk to other people out there. Not really looking for advice. More like looking for some eyes to read this and some words responding to the question in the title.
So, sometimes I feel anxious about all the things I need to do and get this weird sense that I have to rush things while feeling overwhelmed and not wanting to rush things.
These contradicting feelings often come up when I haven’t had a break to do anything other than the things I need to get done. And sometimes, they pop in out of the blue. Or rather, I think it’s out of the blue. I might not be aware how much I’m piling up.
You could say that maybe I’m just overwhelmed. And maybe that’s all it is. I get overwhelmed pretty easily I work on it, but sometimes I can’t because you know, I’m only human
When I’m feeling these overwhelming and want-to-rush feelings, since I do live at home at the moment, I tell my mom who is the person that I always go to for anything to do with feelings and recently, idk why, but she’s been saying “It’s anxiety”.
But I’m not entirely sure I have anxiety as in clinically diagnosed anxiety (no one has diagnosed me). Not saying that I would hate it if I did in fact have anxiety (might be good because then I’ll know exactly what to do with it). I’m saying that I’m not sure that any time I feel anxious about something I can conclude that it’s anxiety.
Can you just be anxious and not have anxiety per say? But idk what anxiety is supposed to feel like compared to what typical anxious feelings are like. I don’t even know if those two feelings are actually the same feelings.
These feelings could also be related to my OCD. I’m saying this because the only thing a psychological doctor has told me is that I have very mild OCD.
I could just be anxious and not have anxiety, right?
But the sort of issue here, I guess, is that I also get anxious because I don’t know where these feelings are specifically coming from (as in, what part of my to-do list is freaking me out) and why I’m feeling this way about it now and not before.
I don’t like to just feel things. I need to know where it’s coming from XD I’m too curious about everything.
Idk where I’m going with this. Maybe if you comment, you could answer the question that is the title of this post.
Thanks for reading my ramblings