Honestly, if you can find someone who is a good fit for you, it might give you the leg up you need to start tackling what you’ve got in mind. Especially given your struggles.
I mean, sheer volume, I’ll never get to all my ideas–just not happening. So I may one day resort to something similar (not ChatGPT, but not for the visceral reaction everyone else has).
But I’m not really in a position to DISCERN(judge) you on this. I have enough struggles meeting my own personal goals, and I’m not facing all the struggles you have.
No matter what you do, long run, I’d hate to see you give up, is all.
(Sorry I’ve been out.)