Possibly good news on the horizon!

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Here’s the thing; I am doing something with my insurance through DDD (Division of Developmental Disabilities), where someone is going to help me find doctors and specialists for myself.

The thing I wanted most besides certain doctors and whatnot is that I learned that there is a chance that I can get a neurologist to properly diagnose me with what I have. I was constantly thinking that I would NEVER get that, a deeper part of me does. I am a bit worried that I will get a neurologist, but the person misdiagnoses me or something along those lines. I am waiting for a phone call from someone on December 2 or December 3 to let me know what else happens, if my memory serves.

I know there will have to be a bit of a wait, that I am hoping isn’t too long. So, with the proper diagnosis, I can see if I will need (I am sure that I definitely will) medication and a therapist, along with a lifestyle coach of sorts.

I am also thinking the reason why I can possibly get this is only through DDD. Trying it by myself wasn’t helpful, because I had to get some aid from an organization that specializes in helping people with developmental issues. Because I am noticing that I am on the spectrum and how things just make sense when I ponder it, given the shit my life has been, I honestly didn’t have much to help me in getting what I need, mainly due to being on my own and not knowing what to even do.

Some large part of me hopes that I do get medication, at least for the ADHD part of me. I say that because, I SEVERELY need focus, a quiet and calm mind, the ability to lessen my distractions (through medication and lifestyle help), having the right energy for my needs and wants in my life. I am worried that because all of the medication that I’ve taken for bipolar, depression, and schizophrenia reminded me that nothing will ever work because I will get the placebo effect and horrible side effects going against my physical health. I don’t know what Adderall or something similar will do for me. I’ve taken non-stimulant ADHD medication that did nothing at all.

Honestly, I just want to take back my life by getting a proper diagnosis, thus getting my life in order.

I like to think that with a proper diagnosis, I can REALLY take control of my writing and my dreams of wanting to publish. I just want to read fiction and write fiction without any hindrances in a way that I have never done.

I am glad to come this far with Project Succession, I just want to go farther.

Thoughts and feelings?

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First of all, congrats in this step.
Second, it won’t be magical rainbow-farting unicorns. It may take a while–and a few more failures–before something works.

So, hang in there, and don’t give up.

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I’m trying not to get excited until I actually get someone and things go through, in terms that I get the testing I need, followed by what they tell I have (meaning what I actually have and things I didn’t even know I had, yet it all makes sense) as well.

I want to be excited, I also want to wait until I actually have one and I get tested, then a diagnosis after the fact.

I don’t want to get my hopes up too much, I am still in that mindset that things are happening, it’s not enough for me.

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I truly hope this helps you, and I’m pleased for you!

SD

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Oooh, I hope it all works out for you! ( ˆ◡ˆ)۶ ٩(˘◡˘ )

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Thanks so much.

@SecretDurham: Same to you as well. Thanks.

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That’s awesome, I really hope it works out for you!

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Thanks ya kindly! :grin:

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