I finished Project Succession and that was a big moment for me. The same applies for when I finished The House of Naivin. Though those stories I have two things in common, the format and the fact that I just threw up on the page and went beyond direction less. There is a goal, but the goal of getting there is just me throwing up words and using a format that is comfortable for me. I know I kept going back to writing Red Reign.
Side tangent about me and Red Reign
I don’t know why I keep writing this story! It frustrates me to no end because I keep going back to this story and Jorildyn. Because in my mind, the story is epic and amazing, until I have to write it out and it becomes something totally different. I don’t even get to the part that is supposed to make it amazing and epic like in my mind. I am chapters and books far from it. I am so delusional about Red Reign that it makes me not want to write it and to put Jorildyn in anything else. Yet I like it because of the delusions which is horrible. Delusions are just that and nothing more. It’s not a delusion when it happens, its now a weird part of reality. I honestly don’t want to write Red Reign at least not dive deeper into why I need to make it work.
Now, I need to go back to what makes me love writing. I don’t need to edit as I write because it is also holding me back and I need to write my chapters like I used to write it. I also enjoy writing by word counts because I am a person who likes some uniformity in my writing style. This is just my own personal opinion for my own sake.
So, I am going back to my basics and writing a story that I can see myself writing. I think I need a whole new character and work my way from there. No Jorildyn, No Aeris, and none of the same characters. I need a new character I can flesh out with a story idea that I am working on right now.
At least I am medicated to make this work.
Thoughts and feelings?