I am going to dive right into this topic because I don’t want to ramble on about random things.
Okay, I never dated anyone, nor have I had sexual relations with anyone.
I honestly think that is the low self-esteem/fear/potential laziness/lack of confidence severely holding me back.
I used to say things like “I am not allowed to date” or “Meh, not interested”. Now, it like I don’t get asked out nor go out of my way to seek romantic relationship.
I don’t think I am in the right headspace to date anyone. I highly think that the untreated ADHD could be at work. I am too wrapped up in myself to play the role of someone’s girlfriend.
Plus, I am not all that physically appealing yet. If I started caring for myself physically and mentally and emotionally, chances are I would be admired in some way or another.
Most people would say dating nowadays is overrated along with having sex. Which is understandable because it is something everyone wants. In all honesty, I probably won’t ever have both a romantic and sexual relationship with anyone.
I am thirty-two years old now and never been down that road. Probably won’t. Got too much shit in my life that needs to be dealt with and I would feel like the worse human being if I dated someone while having these problems.
So, now I am more aware than ever on what is really wrong with me.
Plus, I starting to crave sex more than I should and it is really freaky. Like, I don’t go out of my way to get it, but I do think about it constantly which is a bit bothersome to me.
Anyway, I am not going to keep on rambling on this. What are your thoughts on this matter?
I am definitely able to see things clearly now that I am putting the pieces together.