This is about my feelings and more pertaining to Project Succession:
I was editing or rather highlighting chapter 1, parts 1 to 5 in different colors for what is to be tackled much later. What I am noticing is that chapter 1 and it’s parts hit differently for me. Then again, some of the later chapters are the exact same, only some truly feel like I am writing the early stuff, the others not so much.
So, I am highlighting and underlining important things, things that need improving, things that I find to my liking. I am also listening to the document being read to me via robotic voice, because of a Chrome extension. I won’t deny that editing is an exhausting task, my body and mind are still feeling as I typed this.
As I highlighted things (paragraphs, dialogues, and single sentences) and underlined the crucial stuff, I am learning that the things I add there are a bit neglected in the later chapters. As if never mentioning or touching deeper upon it again, I just write and write. My stride stumbled a bit after Aeris accepted being a princess and then becoming an empress, though it really became wonky when Aeris summoned Mal’gel by accident, something that thinking back on it, didn’t sit right with me.
Even though the potential is still there, hidden amidst chaos, I am still bitter by allowing Aeris to win the Succession Trial which was supposed to happen days or weeks from when she headed down to the Underground Nations, she becoming a princess is one thing, but her becoming an empress was far too soon.
The important and engaging conversations between Aeris and the Knights have sorta vanished too, along with the act of misting being used. A small amount stayed, yet most things were mentioned then no longer, even at times when I should have mentioned it.
Honestly, I do want to rewrite things, because when I get to really editing the whole novel, I am going to be very overwhelmed. I believe I should start now-ish while continuing to finish up writing the chapters. I am just afraid because too much work, setting a schedule, and going through a routine is the ABSOLUTE annoyance against my AuDHD. So, I am stuck on how to handle this.
TL;DR- I am noticing the obvious hits and misses in this story and the things that I neglected, but never mentioned again that was important. I am not a planster or plotter and I am incapable of doing that, because my nature is panster, though I am struggling which I will admit. Should I stop continuing to do a total rewrite of chapters 1-3, parts 1-5 or just keep writing then deal with the headache later?
Thoughts and feelings?