Because of this program I was working with, along with the added stress I have been dealing with as well, I learned that the person I was looking with to find apartments, isn’t supposed to do that yet. I am still waiting to hear back from the state on getting approval for my independence and if I can get a place on my own. I need a letter stating that everything has been approved and then I can look for the apartment with my supporter partner (the one who was helping me with looking for an apartment). Waiting for that letter is a process and a bit of a long wait regardless.
So, my support partner is supposed to help with finding things to do with my time. There are things I need support with and ways she is suppose to help me. I just wish I realized that sooner than now, because I have been harassing that woman like crazy.
Doesn’t help that because of my mental health, I am so stressed out and unable to cope with the endless waiting and not doing anything while I wait. So, the apartment hunting will have to be paused, until I get the state letter in the mail, telling me I can move forward. I don’t know how long it will take, it could take weeks to months, honestly don’t know, nor does the program I am working with know. It’s a process.
That said, I am just going to do my hobbies and have my support partner help me in many ways.
I just wanted to share this because my mental health is horrible as usual, I don’t have a therapist to speak to. I just want a therapist, not a psychiatrist. I don’t want to take medication, I just want to talk and only talk.
I felt like sharing a bit, because my stress levels were high.
I need to talk to friends.
Oh man, that is so disheartneing. I feel for you. I’m so sorry you have to keep waiting for that approval. I hope you get it tho, and it doesn’t take too much longer. I wish I could recommend some resources for therapy, but the only free one I know of only works with people who are residents of the state of Utah. I don’t know if that would help you or not.
I live in New Jersey. So, I go based on what my insurance can give me and that is limited, unfortunately.
It has not been easy waiting. I’m glad I have a support partner, though I want to forget about the state letter that will come in the mail to focus on other things. When the letter comes and I get that phone call, that is when I should remember.
Will it be as easy as I said? Probably not. I just rather not cause my stress level to surge higher than it should.
Yeah, unfortunately I can’t help there. But you are right. Just take things one day at a time. Don’t worry too much about the future, you can cross that bridge when you come to it.
I know. I don’t mind chatting with friends, I don’t want to somehow stress them out with the things I am dealing with, plus I just need to speak to a professional in person.
Doing it virtually isn’t great anymore, got to get out of my comfort zone.
So, I still want to chat with you, when you have the time to.
Because I am not a busy person, I need help in understanding that. When my stress rises and my thoughts spiral, I can’t see that nor understand it. It’s horrible.
I learned that I got approved for getting housing by the state! So, now I can start looking for apartments for myself, one bedroom. I have mixed feelings all over again!
The stress and overwhelming actions of searching for a place and everything else has GREATLY affected me to the point that I am unable to handle it.
So, I have to pause my apartment searching for mid-January or early February because I need a whole month and a half to relax, to just stick to my hobbies and other things.
My support partner Grace and I will talk more, I just don’t want to search for anything until I am stress free enough.
