Things in regards to my mental health are getting handled, bit by bit. I am getting there, so I will not focus too heavily on it.
The reasons why I had to stop wanting to make a YouTube Channel and/or trying to publish my stories are.
Grandeur of delusions/fantasizing.
The cold harsh reality.
People-pleasing/The need to make others happy.
Too much stress/unable to handle it.
Overthinking everything.
Not mentally there to even think about doing such things.
Everyone else is doing/I’m not so what am I going to do with my life and my time.
Forgetting my own problems to focus on ANYTHING ELSE!!!
Inability to relax and enjoy life.
Make money/wealth.
I don’t read enough fiction or take it seriously when I’m not struggling, mentally.
These are the reasons why I am not going through with making a YouTube Channel or thinking about publishing my stories. I would be lying if I told you all that I don’t think about wanting to do a channel or publish. I don’t want to do it because of the listed reasons, and yet I still do want to pursue those things. Yet I think about it for the wrong reasons, hence the list.
I am still focusing on therapy and getting help. I just hope that medication calms my hyperactive mind.
YouTube could be videos on you playing with stickers, just passing the time. It doesn’t have to be for anything. But it is a lot of pressure to “make it” with such things.
But I don’t do them because it’s content and consistency, and I just don’t have it in me right now.
So I totally get it…without having the same factors.
I have ideas for a YouTube channel. I just think those ideas will make me hated by the YouTube algorithm and subscribers are hard to please most times.
My ideas are unique yet I am always pondering if I become successful. I don’t like to accept the reality of things.
I get that. I hear plenty of YouTubers saying how they hate editing their vlogs. The difference between me and them is that I see no point in doing a weekly vlog. I would rather do a single day or two to three day vlogs at my desk or at a table or maybe elsewhere.
This is why I like a good buffer. For instance, I don’t have a YouTube channel, but if I did, I’d film about a hundred videos first in order to figure out how it’s done and what room in the house/what clothes to wear/etc. Then when I had a hundred good, decent videos, then I’d start uploading them, one per week so I’d have consistency. I’d have a good backup so I wouldn’t feel pressured to make new videos until I felt in the mood, and that’s how I’d avoid the stress. I’d always keep on top of it, making new videos before the hundredth week was up, but I’d do it slow and stressfree, not pressured by an imaginary deadline. It takes years and years to get a decent number of subscribers and start making money from it anyhow, so what’s the hurry? Better to do it slow and consistently than rushed and stressful.
I plan to write this book series the same way: write three or four books first, and then start publishing them through Draft2Digital, IngramSpark, or whatever company I ultimately go with. Then I’ll rapid release them like every six months or so while I’m writing the next book in the series at my own pace. No stress, no pressure, but definite consistency so any potential readers aren’t put off by a long wait.
Starting a YouTube channel, you mean? I don’t know, maybe one day. Right now I can’t afford the equipment for it; I don’t have a mic or a camera. ¯\_(ﭢ)_/¯
Makes me think about my partner and I. We both get great ideas and even plan them a little bit but very rarely follow through. I dubbed this “Great Ideas Syndrome” It’s nice to plan and imagine and think oh how nice it will be if only we just started it… Especially if it’s something involving both of us, it’s so hard to get them done.
If it’s just me, I find a day and just do them one by one…that reminds me, I should call the guy to sell my filing cabinet thingy that’s taking up unnecessary space…
If you’re worried about pleasing people, you have to understand that whatever you do on YouTube, there will be someone that doesn’t like it and there will be people you can’t please no matter what you do. I have, fortunately, not received any hate comments on my videos yet (and unfortunately rarely receive comments in general ). So, if you do think about starting a channel, you need to be in the right mindset to accept that for quite some time, you might not get a lot of views, subs, or comments.
That’s why I said if you think you won’t be able to do YouTube right now, then don’t do it and focus on evaluating yourself and calming your mind, or whatever you need to do for your mental health
It’s nice to plan and imagine and think oh how nice it will be if only we just started it… Especially if it’s something involving both of us, it’s so hard to get them done.
). So, if you do think about starting a channel, you need to be in the right mindset to accept that for quite some time, you might not get a lot of views, subs, or comments.