CHAOS

[LadyOfTheRiver]

@jj_tesla

I mean I do agree that thinking is useful, but I’m wondering if it’s a values clash or there’s an error in trade-off evaluation. Let’s create a spreadsheet:

jeeeez- didn’t realize you liked them so much I mean I get the dinosaur one, but the arguments? that’s a new one loool.

@jj_tesla

I’ve seen westerners have a ‘make fast, break things’ attitude. I hate this with all my heart. This only works when you have nothing to lose. But if you do, you cannot really afford to take unnecessary risks. For every success story, you have 99 failure stories.

response to '“make fast, break things”

please don’t lump north america with europe and say “westerners”. what you’re mentioning is primarily a US attitude. i’ve lived in both contintents for an extended period, and i’d say that it’s only the US that has that ‘american dream’ situation going on. the rest of the world, including canada, doesn’t really care. in fact, where I am now (ireland) people are super cautious about how they take risks, and oftentimes they’re so unwilling to change that they’d rather die than take the risk of breaking tradition for a method that is proven to work better.

i’m Russian. I only say i’m Canadian because I lived there for 5 years and have the passport, so it has impacted me fairly well. I don’t reflect the views and cultural habits of the people in the US and Canada. just because I live/have lived there doesn’t mean that I am of that culture. I stress this because there is always a strong distinction between where someone is from and where they live/have lived.

as for comments on that attitude, I see people not doing that enough. i’ve been an immigrant my whole life, I’ve been weighed down by other people’s expectations for what they think I should be and I hate it. that’s why I have that attitude. I don’t want the light in my eyes to die.

and that’s not to say that I intentionally make stupid choices to have fin. instead, I push myself to consider if there’s a better way - a way that doesn’t make everyhting hell. and often times, there is.

@jj_tesla

You may become the scapegoat anyway. Westerners have a person-centric approach, where when something fails, they starting looking for a single person to blame.

response to scapegoats

this I can confirm. unfortunately, it’s kind of like the salem witch trials – it’s not about who’s actually guilty, but who’s the most convenient person to blame. often times, that ends up being people who are different in some shape of form. just bc they’re different or challenge society, they are automaticaly the scapegoats for everything wrong with the world.

as one of those people, I really don’t give a fuck anymore. if i’m the scapegoat anyway, might as well own it and raise a little hell. oh, and think for myself while i’m at it.

@jj_tesla

You may have a unique solution

this is a good point. it’s rly not good to reinvent the wheel. but also, if a path that’s well-travelled is horrible for you, then well, fuck it. get some really comfy shoes instead of walking barefoot on gravel, or just go to a nicer path.

@jj_tesla

1. hurt your ego and self-worth

hmm… about this: I digress that it’s a good thing to bruise your ego once in a while. helps you grow.

[LadyOfTheRiver]

litterally my survival strategy. it’s not an empty threat if it’s illegal.

[jj_tesla]

@LadyOfTheRiver

jeeeez- didn’t realize you liked them so much I mean I get the dinosaur one, but the arguments? that’s a new one loool.

Everything looks good with a spreadsheet. If you’re not living a good life, your spreadsheet isn’t optimised enough.

@LadyOfTheRiver

response to '“make fast, break things”

Ah, sorry then. I shouldn’t have lumped you with those A*ericans, I can understand how insulting that might feel.

Wait, you can become a Canadian citizen in 5 years? Wait, why am I aiming for Germany then? Pretty sure there are plenty of twinks in Canada too.

Wait, do they have walkable cities in Canada?

@LadyOfTheRiver

response to scapegoats

The second part is noted, your response will feed into my ‘chaotic person’ personality type for writing those characters.

@LadyOfTheRiver

this is a good point. it’s rly not good to reinvent the wheel. but also, if a path that’s well-travelled is horrible for you, then well, fuck it. get some really comfy shoes instead of walking barefoot on gravel, or just go to a nicer path.

I mean, I understand. I just prefer using an orderly approach to chaos. You guessed it… spreadsheets!

Like how transwomen are attracted to blahaj and estrogen, I’m attracted to spreadsheets.

@LadyOfTheRiver

hmm… about this: I digress that it’s a good thing to bruise your ego once in a while. helps you grow.

Ah.

Again, I meant that in the sense that ‘the self’. I just hate ‘ego’ has become this negative word in modern media, and I’m still stuck in the medieval times when it just means ‘your individuality, good and bad things alike’.

@LadyOfTheRiver

litterally my survival strategy. it’s not an empty threat if it’s illegal.

Reminds me of this guy… Billy Mitchell. He set a world record for Donkey Kong back in 19-something, except it was later found that he cheated. So then he started suing everyone who said he cheated, stating defamation. Billy does lose most of his cases.

Except that the guy who was crusading against Billy (Karl Jobst) lost to Billy because he said Billy caused a guy to hop the twig or something, so Karl was Billy’s first victory. It was so funny, I genuinely laughed.

[LadyOfTheRiver]

@jj_tesla

Everything looks good with a spreadsheet. If you’re not living a good life, your spreadsheet isn’t optimised enough.

agreed. one can never be too optimized.

@jj_tesla

Ah, sorry then. I shouldn’t have lumped you with those A*ericans, I can understand how insulting that might feel.

thanks.

@jj_tesla

Wait, you can become a Canadian citizen in 5 years? Wait, why am I aiming for Germany then? Pretty sure there are plenty of twinks in Canada too.

canada details. if you want more info you’re gonna have to do your own research tho. plus things might have changed.

@jj_tesla

Wait, do they have walkable cities in Canada?

@jj_tesla

Wait, do they have walkable cities in Canada?

tbh I have no memory of what it was like for me cuz I was 5 and they just gave me it also my father had one before I got mine, so I guess that helps.

but what I remember from my mother, it’s decently tedious, but doable. she moved there and then around 4-5 years later she was a citizen. I don’t like talking about this much because it was a traumatic period in my life, so I can’t rly give much info. all I know is that you have to study for a giant test to proive how good you are at english, learn some canadian history/culture and answer Qs about it, and then they will give it to you.

research more, it might actually be an option. it’s not EU status, but it might as well be. plus they’re decently liberal over there, and from what I remember, healthcare is mostly free.

canada isn’t rly walkable unless you want to stroll in your neighborhood park. and the transport is horrid.

@jj_tesla

The second part is noted, your response will feed into my ‘chaotic person’ personality type for writing those characters.

Angel of Chaos, at your service!

@jj_tesla

I mean, I understand. I just prefer using an orderly approach to chaos. You guessed it… spreadsheets!

omg no way so innnovative lmao

(sarcasm)

@jj_tesla

Like how transwomen are attracted to blahaj and estrogen, I’m attracted to spreadsheets.

you and my gf would get along so well together lmao.

@jj_tesla

and I’m still stuck in the medieval times when it just means ‘your individuality, good and bad things alike’.

ah ok. makes more sense.

still. if you’re not challenged you become too comfortable. being too comfortable makes you (and others aroiund you) miserable. it’s good to be pushed once in a while.

@jj_tesla

So then he started suing everyone who said he cheated, stating defamation.

well… i’m not cheating at a game, i’m getting discriminated against by old white men. so it’s a different level of “i’ll sue you”

[LadyOfTheRiver]

my lore. let the story being!

instead of being the angel of chaos as in controlling the element, I would rather be from chaos. kind of like a last name, like those that are ‘of verona’ but I came from chaos!

because it’s true, I did. and I survived. and i’m no longer controlling the chaos, I am governing it. I can also bring order to chaos as well as chaos to order, depending on what I need. OR what I feel like heheheeh

[LadyOfTheRiver]

ugh, spain won the world cup. i’m fucking glad to not be in the city today.

let’s hope nothing gets destroyed, exploded, or set on fire these next few days… sigh spanish soccer fans are truly something.

[Novel_Worm]

Yay!!!

@LadyOfTheRiver

I remember the contests back when they were a thing on Wacky

Oh I miss those! The short stories were a fun exercise.

@LadyOfTheRiver

And now I’m trying to find a place for my poetry and I think it’s the same. Like, I write things that no one wants to talk about. that’s the point. BUT THE POINT IS THAT NO ONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT IT

Well, I’m sure somewhere there’s a place for that. Alternatives are fun, and definitely have their own space! Now that you mention it, I’d love to see some of these!

[Novel_Worm]

That sounds very frustrating. Lots of hugs from my end. Unfortunately, a lot of professors are stuck in old ways and thinking that does not allow for accomodation. Change is slow and minimal in numbers. It’s great that you have the disability office’s support, now, and that there’s a good project coming! If you do get a break between your two years, I can only recommend that you take that time to decompress… It is true that the degree is very valued, and especially from what I’ve seen when I was studying in Europe, it seems to be even more important there. Hang in a little, see if you can make connections to secure a job early, and then it’ll be much much easier after that because you don’t have to do more than the bare minumum at college if you know where you will be after that.

I hope that was helpful! Even if not, here’s some more hugs.

[LadyOfTheRiver]

Birb is cute

@CoffeebyNight

[LadyOfTheRiver]

Thanks!

I think I’ve mainly figured it out tho.

@LadyOfTheRiver

And maybe I’ll finish college, maybe I won’t. But this isn’t about that anymore. It’s about making my own choices and never giving up on what makes me feel alive.

When there’s a will, there’s a way. And there’s so many ways to make my life easier when it comes to school. The list is fucking HUGE.

^-^

[Churro]

@jj_tesla

Oh.

I swear that’s entirely separate from what I have, but now that I see it, it does seem like that: both groups are more good (even though my world operates on dharma and Christians see the material world as real).

I only read like parts of the Bible, never the full text. I don’t think I’m missing much, though. I’d pay good money for a Biblical tales book with the main god taken out, just all the stories and events.

Yeah, Adam’s bloodline was ‘good’, became ‘corrupted’ then after the purge (flood) it was good for a while until people repopulated the earth and it became ‘corrupt’ again. I think that was to illustrate sin to Christians, or something.

Yeah, to be fair a lot of people don’t read the full text of the Bible. Maybe someone will make a Biblical History Tales book at some point or Stories from Biblical Times and you can have one. I’m surprised someone hasn’t already.

@jj_tesla

Ah! I guess many stories do have Mars as a utopia, typically featuring a domed city there. I don’t go with that, though. I mean, Mars is technically still livable if you live by the coast, and actually quite comfortable, but not the inland deserts. But overall, it’s way worse than earth.

And yeah, imagine a cold desert. If you don’t know it, watch some videos on the Gobi desert and you’ll get it. When most people imagine deserts, they think of sand dunes, so not that (those are present, but not very common – fun fact, they’re not very common in the Sahara either).

Camels are actually very cool:

Yeah, they do. And fair enough if you don’t go with that. A Mars coast sounds interesting, tbh. Inland deserts sound like hell though. Mostly because they’re inland and very sandy. Not even the heat for me. I can imagine a lot of dust storms there.

Yeah, I will look up videos and also watch the camel one too. Thanks for sharing it.

@jj_tesla

No, that’s just my motto. The empire’s motto might have been something like “look on my works, ye mighty, and despair”. That would fit.

Ah, I see. That sounds like a cool empire motto as well.

@jj_tesla

Ah, I see. Stockiness might lead to some scariness. I’m 180 cm tall and weigh 83 kilos, but my bones are large and muscles are dense, so I look thinnier than I am.

Yes!

Body builds are cool to be honest. People who are the same height and weight can look different depending on how their body is.

@jj_tesla

Yeah, makes sense. I guess not using AI too much is a good idea, since that way you can keep more of your own touch in your work.

Yeah, that’s what it’s all about. Balance and harmony I think.

[jj_tesla]

@LadyOfTheRiver

agreed. one can never be too optimized.

Or rather, you can optimise it, but it’ll get disorderly soon again. Change is the law of the universe. And existence is a constant battle against chaos.

@LadyOfTheRiver

canada details. if you want more info you’re gonna have to do your own research tho. plus things might have changed.

Oh! The English part is fine (though I’m afraid I’ll screw it up because of ADHD).

Still, EU will be my first priority, and Canada second, maybe Australia or New Zealand will be third.

@LadyOfTheRiver

you and my gf would get along so well together lmao.

Yeah, I’m getting the sense that we will. Not because of anything particular, but because we’re both old.

@LadyOfTheRiver

still. if you’re not challenged you become too comfortable. being too comfortable makes you (and others aroiund you) miserable. it’s good to be pushed once in a while.

Ah, yes, that’s true, but constant change is again chaos.

That might be good for you, though, or some other people.

@LadyOfTheRiver

well… i’m not cheating at a game, i’m getting discriminated against by old white men. so it’s a different level of “i’ll sue you”

Ah. I hope that works out for you then. I guess you can’t cheat if the game is rigged from the start.

The head was kicked from the start.

[jj_tesla]

@LadyOfTheRiver

instead of being the angel of chaos as in controlling the element, I would rather be from chaos. kind of like a last name, like those that are ‘of verona’ but I came from chaos!

By the power that is vested in me by Dog, I dub you Chaosovich.

@LadyOfTheRiver

ugh, spain won the world cup. i’m fucking glad to not be in the city today.

let’s hope nothing gets destroyed, exploded, or set on fire these next few days… sigh spanish soccer fans are truly something.

Spain too? I’m just happy Argentina lost because their fans are obnoxious.

I wished my ex congratulations, even though he’s English. He said “I wasn’t watching the game but I hear fireworks so I assume we won. Thanks!”

[jj_tesla]

@Churro

Yeah, Adam’s bloodline was ‘good’, became ‘corrupted’ then after the purge (flood) it was good for a while until people repopulated the earth and it became ‘corrupt’ again. I think that was to illustrate sin to Christians, or something.

Yeah, to be fair a lot of people don’t read the full text of the Bible. Maybe someone will make a Biblical History Tales book at some point or Stories from Biblical Times and you can have one. I’m surprised someone hasn’t already.

That happens in Hinduism too.

We have the concept of the ‘Manu’. The timeline is broken up into 14 manvantaras (intervals of Manu), where each manvantara lasts 306.7 million years. It starts and ends with a cosmic flood that wipes out everything, leaving only the current Manu and his family surviving in an ark, who then goes on to repopulate the next world. This is an important cycle, as the gods change each manvantara. Indra (the King of the Gods) is not an individual, but rather a title, that changes from manvantara to manvantara. We are currently in the seventh manvantara, and our progenitor is Vaivasvata Manu.

In the very last years of the previous manvantara, Matsya the Horned Fish came to Vaivasvata Manu, asking him to protect it from the bigger fishes. Nature follows Matsya-Nyaya (Fish Justice: the bigger fish eats the smaller fish), but the King’s dharma (duty) is to prevent this – to defend the weak from the strong. But because everyone was wicked in this time, no one would do their dharma, and Manu was the only person who was good, which is why he was chosen.

So Manu took the fish into a jar, and from there it grew so large that it had to be moved to a well, and then a pond, and then finally back to the river. And when it was returned there, the fish revealed itself to be Vishnu the Preserver, who then told Manu to build an ark, load it with all the seeds, and the Seven Sages (the Big Dipper). Then the flood happened, and Manu sruvived. Matsya guided the ark, tying the ark to his horn by the body of Vasuki the Serpent-King.

@Churro

Yeah, they do. And fair enough if you don’t go with that. A Mars coast sounds interesting, tbh. Inland deserts sound like hell though. Mostly because they’re inland and very sandy. Not even the heat for me. I can imagine a lot of dust storms there.

Yeah, I will look up videos and also watch the camel one too. Thanks for sharing it.

Yep, there’s a lot of dust storms, plus it’s also very dry.

And cold. Intensely cold, ranging from 20°C in the day to -100°C at night. There are plenty of caves where you can rest, and that’s almost necessary, because otherwise you’ll die.

@Churro

Yes!

Body builds are cool to be honest. People who are the same height and weight can look different depending on how their body is.

Yeah, basically. I’m wondering if you look like the gangsters and stuff you write.

[LadyOfTheRiver]

Everything else aside… my gf is the ER again

She’s alive, just probs broke another bone. That brings her count up to 22… fucking hell.

[LadyOfTheRiver]

@jj_tesla

And existence is a constant battle against chaos.

Why battle it when u can ride it?

@jj_tesla

Still, EU will be my first priority, and Canada second, maybe Australia or New Zealand will be third.

I’m being serious which saying that Canada is a good option. It’s one of the strongest passports in the world, and you can go to Europe without any visas. If you wanna work in Europe it’s easier then because you don’t need visa sponsorship, only proof that you’re employed, which your boss can def provide without many issues.

@jj_tesla

Ah, yes, that’s true, but constant change is again chaos.

…I’m the angel of chaos. OF COURSE that’s my goal in life. MWAHAHAHAH

[LadyOfTheRiver]

@jj_tesla

Spain too? I’m just happy Argentina lost because their fans are obnoxious.

There is little competition here. Spanish people commit arson whether the win OR lose

[LadyOfTheRiver]

Okay. As the Angel of Chaos, it is obligatory to ask you all…

QOTD: what’s your favourite flavour of chaos?

@Taglist

(No, none isn’t an option)

[NotARussianBot]

Is Akuma a flavor?

[LadyOfTheRiver]

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